i want my old life back
not so old.
maybe like december 07 january 08 ish
that'd be perfect

that i can't lie to myself. i feel those crazy ass feelings. and if i feel what i feel then yes its gonna hurt like hell if im right. its gonna hurt and i will get past it. and you know there is always new york. ;]



did it all get real, i guess it's real enough
they got refrigerators full of blood
another century spent pointing guns
at anything that moves
sometimes i worry that i've lost the plot
my twitching muscles tease my flippant thoughts
i never really dreamed of heaven much
until we put him in the ground
but it's all i'm doing now
listening for patterns in the sound
of an endless static sea
but once the satellite's deceased
it blows like garbage through the streets
of the night sky to infinity
but don't you weep (don't you weep for them)
there is nothing as lucky
don't you weep
there is nothing as lucky, as easy, or free

don't be a criminal in this police state
you better shop and eat and procreate
you got vacation days then you might escape
to a condo on the coast
i set my watch to the atomic clock
i hear the crowd count down 'til the bomb gets dropped
i always figured that there'd be time enough
i never let it get me down
but i can't help it now
looking for faces in the clouds
i got some friends i barely see
but we're all planning to meet
we'll lay in bags as dead as leaves
all together for eternity
but don't you weep
there is no one as lucky
honey, don't you weep
there is nothing as lucky, as easy, or free


mmmmm best picker upper
i feel much better.
:}

if my life  could get any better i wouldn't care. i love the way things are right now. not to say i've never been happy before, but this is the happy they talk about in movies. the happy most people dont think exist. seriously with the guy of my dreams. a job i love. parents have been so amazing with me lately. school going amazing. car. friends. i love it all.
 
leo is the most amazing person i could have ever meet at the best time. he in all honesty completes me. there are things about him i thought i'd never be ok with, but he's so fucking sweet and respectful that those things seems stupid to bother. he says things that fill my heart up. he's helped me out so much, and saved me from alot. he is one of heroes i can say that. everything went real slow with him, and im so glad i took the time out to get to know so much about him. im also glad i  took the chance with him, after last year, i wanted nothing to do with love for a while. im so greatful to have him in  my life. he is my bby boy, my CUTtie, my sexyass bf, booh. te quiero so much.
i know its harder for me this time to love him, but i know when i feel it, it will be the best love i've ever felt.

school is going so good. getting really good grades in math. so far i've gotten perfect As on all my test iin that class. WINNERRR lol.music appreciation is boring but im doing good so far :]

work is amazing. i just got a raise. so from 7 and hour im now at 8 an hour. :]]]]] and i've only been there 2 months. my co-workers are kick ass, i have a blast everyday at work, running around the store. coldwater wars. people skating all over the place. urggg best job ever,

my car is great shape. i finallly got it all fixed, minus the back bumper, but ehh no biggy.

my parents have been so chill with me, and actually talk to me like an adult (most of the time)

my friends are doing amazing. annabelle got a new car. rigo is the coolest person to talk to about anything. yoli and juan are still all cute and together. vinny i haven't seen in a bit so i miss her mucho. cesar has a gf. billy is chilling living his life. chris is doing good in best buy. barby and eddy are good. too many to mention but i know everyones doing good <333

oh im in a band now. we haven't got anything down yet, but we will soon. i'll be sining btw lol

omg and i can't fucking wait for bamboozle, its gonna be me, annabelle, rigo, & alex.
time of our lives i know it. leo was suppose to go to. but theres something he needs to be here for may 4th. he's gonna be a godfather :]

and they keep adding bandsssssssssssss
:]]]]

love this song so muchhhh





so school starts tomorrow
& i can't wait to start my new job later on this week

i will be traing to be an instrustor
get to be in that kick ass flow rider room
chilling taking care of peoplethat use it, and teaching
for $7 an hour, not bad.
my mom is also giving me her car finally
all mine starting feb i think hopefully sooner


LEO (12:42:33 AM): Sweeet things for my sweet CUTtie 
alej jay (12:42:45 AM): ;]
LEO (12:42:46 AM): Ur special to me 
LEO (12:42:56 AM): V.I.p.

love feeling the way i feel
nothing can compare to it

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